more?

On the spot rambling?
Okay then :)

I want to be something more. I always have, I've just never had the motivation to do so.  Today is one of those particularly motivated days, but not in the sense that I'm actually getting shit done with my life right now.  I'm still just being me.. sitting on my bed, sending the occasional text to my boy, and listening to music. I'd like to have more.  I'd like to be better.  But maybe that isn't who I am?

Some days I want to be healthier and work out.  Some days I want to do all of my homework and have good grades.  Some days I want to read my Bible and pray.  Some days I actually want to brush my teeth and wash my face before I go to bed.  Sometimes it's as simple as wanting to clean my room or do my laundry more.  Maybe it's weird, but usually I don't want to do those things.  Sure, I like who I am..
But I do know I could be better.
Where do I start?

And it's funny because I like doing the things I want to be doing.. but I just don't.
It doesn't make sense.
I love reading, but I can't seem to pick up this damn book and read.
I love photography, but I just don't feel like it.
I love being healthy, but I'm just not.

I don't get it!

It's always "maybe tomorrow.."
.. then I fall asleep and do the exact same thing tomorrow.  Same routine, only now I'm avoiding the things I should be doing. For no reason!!

I hate routine. I really do. But now I've fallen so deep into one that I can't figure out how to pull myself back out of it.

I want to be free from it all.
I want to have no worries.
I want to be at peace with myself and my life.

I need a change. I need something new.
Summertime, come quickly!


**Sorry if you took the time to read this and were disappointed at it's lack of a conclusion ;)

miss tasha.

I'm soooo laaaazyyy...
I don't know what to do with myself anymore!
I never do homework. I hardly do my 365, and when I do I upload it a week later, and never on here anymore.. I feel like all of my free time is spent sleeping...
I just made a bowl of pasta, and I cooked the whole thing from sitting on the counter next to the stove cause it was too much work to stand while it cooked.

Miss Tasha needs a giant kick in the ass to get herself back into life!
Somebody help?

Motivation? Inspiration? Anything?

forty four / 365

february 13, 2012

I wish taking photos wasn't so much of a chore. I wish I had the time and energy to enjoy them like (sometimes) I do. I'm so stressed out. I don't even know why, that's the real problem. :|

forty three / 365

february 12, 2012

my new toys.. :)

forty one / 365

february 10, 2012

duckie :)

i finally got photoshop on my new laptop :) yuss!

forty / 365

February 9, 2012

da domo.

originally he was terrorizing T-Ville's parking lot as part of a photo assignment. and it was awesome.

but sadly, the photoshopped version is on the school's computer.

thirty nine / 365

February 8, 2012